I think the last post I made was a list of things and people that I love. I remember writing it and then thinking of all that I'd accidentally left out. It was inevitable really.
Right now, I'm sitting with Steve C and Barry in Castledawson, enjoying Waking Life and lots of tea. it's 6:15. As per usual, I am awake. I've gotten used to sleeping very little at very strange times in the day, no biggie, I'll sort it out when I grow up.
The thing I was most looking forward to this year was playing bass on tour for Forced Out in South America. It's not happening now and I'm not all that bummed about it. You can't allow yourself to get excited about these things until the moment you're in the process. It does really badly suck though. On the flip side of that, it allows me to get out of the country for another reason.
I'm going to Haiti. Global Volunteer Network I saw some reports on the news and thought I'd love to go over, I really would. My aunt Justine said 'What's stopping you?'. That evening I had begun booking my place. I need to get things moving quickly if I want to go, although, being honest, I don't have to move quickly at all, this is going to take years, if you can put a time on recovery for one of the poorest places on Earth.
After reading some articles and watching some reports I have to admit I'm scared. I just know whenever I get over there (1st April) whatever I think I know won't count for anything. I will be completely out of my depth and it's worrying. Not to sound like the lad or anything but my balls are big enough to think I can handle it. I want to help these people not fucking die. I don't think I have any grasp on how bad it is over there. My ignorance and my fear are driving me to do this.
I did see one report that was suggesting inexperienced people such as myself shouldn't go over to try and help because the real emergency work needs to be done by veterans. I'm going to find out from the agency if my help is what they need. I'm sure I'll get a positive response though. I can't see them turning away any help.
I need to get money together quick though.
I've joined this band, Crows. I'm pretty excited about this as I finally get a chance to write some hardcore. We wrote one song in my first practice and I hope people like it. David and Rob are great lads. I hope we get a singer who fits the vibe. I'm really looking forward to gigging.
As far as Overhead, The Albatross is concerned, we jammed as a 6 piece for the first time last week, it didn't gel very well. Vinny came up with the idea that we write and track the songs first and learn them as covers to play live. It works for me, it means we can structure our melodies and parts easier and more directly. Luke put a video together for Jonah, it's pretty cool. I'm looking forward to seeing the cut version of it.
I really love playing with these lads, so much music, everywhere.
I've been hanging around with some new(ish) people the last while, I've been having the ball. I'm in a good place.
This has probably been a mindless meander. It usually is. I kind of want somebody to give me something they want me to write about, to see if I can.
It's hard to concentrate on Waking Life and typing.